What am I looking for

What happened,
What happened to the friends you could speak your mind to.
The ones with whom you could compliment at every thing done right.
Rather than deprecation of others, and tooting one's own horn.
Those who you could hug, and leave it at that, just a hug between friends.
Where did those friends go?

P.S.
CA is right. You really do act like a retarded baboon the first time.
And the second.
And the third.
Hope that stops soon.